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What Makes You Happy? My Thoughts
This is a question I asked today and realized that it was a difficult one. One I couldn’t answer immediately. They have asked me this question a lot. We all want the illusive happiness or is it so? I did a bit of internal introspection. Something I do often, and sometimes it’s only rumination if I’m honest with myself. The challenge is to be honest with self and to look for the truth for self, not for anyone else but for myself. So with loud music in my ears and a timer to challenge me, I write this piece. The loud music quietens the saboteur, and mine is strong, from telling me what i should or shouldn’t say at this moment in this post. This is the answer I got to my question…
To start, I think about what I did yesterday. Did I get engrossed in a task where time vanished? Where I lost time and didn’t look at the phone or search for a distraction. I have to say right now I am loving this writing app, it’s a good accountability partner without having an accountability partner. Killing monsters by writing words is ingenious and I know that’s something I love, yet I avoid doing it. What is that? A saboteur crawling into my mind, distracting me and forcing me to live a mediocre life, because I allow it. And that’s easy to say, however it is true. I beat myself up constantly about the situation I find myself in, yet I don’t do what I promise myself to do. I break promises to myself…
