This has been a crazy year… Some of us have pivoted and others are looking for ways to cope and still others grabbed the situation and made opportunities for themselves. It’s all about perception. For me, one day during the lockdown, I remembered my marriage and how I changed something negative into something positive. How a hell turned out to be a heaven! So, perhaps this is the way we should look at this year, count our blessings and find the good…
This is my story…
My marriage was falling apart… There were days of silence, where we didn’t say a word to each other. And sometimes it was a relief. The yelling, blaming and shouting was torture. It was torture. So, if we didn’t speak to each other for a day the silence was gratifying, until it continued for days and weeks.
It meant that for one day I wouldn’t be crying on my bed in hopelessness.
It was Hell…
My turmoil was an ugly churn swarming within me with… feelings of being in prison, questions of what I should do? What was expected of me? What did my family expect of me? Emotions like embarrassment, fear, self-doubt, self-reproach, and then the self-flagellation…and it was fierce… this was all in the pit of my stomach threatening to bubble over…And the conflict continued…
